Insomniac

Sometimes sleep is boring too
and yawns are yawnful
Its one of those nights
when light is more stimulating than darkness
And I don't wanna close my eyes ..not yet..not yet
Cos I would wake upto tomorrow
and this day would be gone
I suddenly miss it
But probably I just need to sleep !

Bored of breathing

I m bored of my moods
of logic that defies reason
things I feel when I ought to think
fake happiness concealing my inside demon
Of ghosts that haunt my nights and sleep
and sleep that cries for attention and peace
Demands coming to nought and
insipiration getting rotten
of decaying thoughts
and the promises forgotten
of death that kills life slow
and of life that makes death glow
Songs melodic but with stolen tunes
and the money that don't fill my hollowness june
I am tired of things reaching a dead-end
of talent that cant proceed after a point
of a wait for rapture
and of soothing morning light
I am tired of boredom
and of loss of purpose
am tired of running
for things that don't matter
I am bored of feeling sad
for people who are obsessed to win
of the blindness that win brings
and the loss of breath as life swings !!

Everyday

The truth is I m tired
Tired of being happy Tired of being sad
tired of being angry n tired of being bad
Drained of all real interest; m in want of more life
for being a person who can make others happy
for just a moment if not for entire life
You know as I know;I have no right to complain
my friends tried to help me for what it was worth
only to fail but they aren't the ones to blame
People invested lots of feelings in me
n reaped no benefits in return
an NPV that never seems to go positive
m an ROI of that abysymal proportions

Just give me some time to regain my breath
You know I am tired of being my biggest disappointment
Unable to simplify routine ; in hope of some magic
A fool's errand that seem to devastate any way I try to pave
This perpetual emotional holocaust never leaves no survivors
It's a daily bloodbath of embarassment and defeat
Maybe there will be a time when you will understand why
To go away from you; was the best thing for u I ever did

Trapped in the cobwebs of mind
My vision falters at every step
Don't know what to make of sunlight
It stands for hope I never met..