Jetissoned !

you wait for the night
Sliding from the sight
As you fall through the holocaust
your moans and yells cutting through the dark
Grumpily cushioning your anger
and forgetting more through the day
to keep smiling through your nightmares while in sleep
Loneliness cuts through you like a knife
and coldness makes your heart melt like butter on stove
you aren't empty but filled with life
Heartcells shouting at you to let them live
as you smile at them; and cut the rope!
jetisonned by life you are left to die

Disillusionment !

We promised to cross the road together
Always wary of the running vehicles
As I was blinded more and more by your love
You left my hand in front of a coming bus
I don't mind being run over
I don't mind going to pulp for you
I don't care if I live or not after we end
All I cared for was you
I don't wanna ruin your life
I don't wanna be with you if am not the one
I don't care if you will remember me again
Am just happy I won't rouble you again
even if I miss you like hell
I realize things can't work both ways
can't analyze and feel at the same time
I feel I have been honest to you
and just wanted to fade out the same way

But the bus has gone past
and you are no longer there
I wanted to make sure I end
But I survive to endure
The pain should have died
But it persists
I wanted to forget you
But memories still persist
I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna vandalize what we had
It will ruin everything
But I will hate you
not for leaving my hand
but for letting me live
only to make me see the truth and withstand !

I wanted to not be disillusioned ever
never to see imperfection in the imperfect bond we had
But I survive now to question it again and again
Unsure if it was ever true; on how things stand
Maybe the feelings for you would always persist whatever I think
But you should have been more merciful to me;
there was just no need to make it feel so wrong
I find I was in love with you and am weak enough to stay so always
But I still possess the strength to stand up and move on !

Destiny brought us together yesterday, Destiny tore us apart today, Destiny will it ever bring us back tommorow?" Breaking up with you was hard, But, Letting go of you, even harder. Seeing everything that we once shared come to an abrupt end, hurt But, what hurts the most today, is seeing us behave like strangers

Innocence

How does one survive with one's heart broken
Time and again to remind I am just a human
your feelings no longer respond to you
You are but a guy with no where to go

What did you do wrong ?
You let your self flow in a stream without a plan
In search of a land where you don't belong
For that stupid happiness you crazed all along

You trusted people you shouldn't have
Gave yourself to the ones who didn't want ya
To find that you are but helplessly lost to them
and about you they don't give a damn !

All I asked for was
someone who's innocence I could trust with mine
A person who is a kid; an adult just in skin
We would be each other's best pals; one who'd always be there
and yet a couple;who respond to each other's heartbeats

But that thing was not to be
Things went haywire;nothing was as it seemed
I ended up sad and bruised; it was inevitable a scene
Cos I spent myself for somebody who maybe didn't deserve me

The power to break me you always had
But you chose to abuse it as per your moods and will
I was always your need and not desire
What you have left me with;is dark sadness and gloomy chill

But it isn't the sadness or loneliness that hurts
It's the fact that I am not to love you now for all time
n yet I find am unable to retort or resent to you in anyway
Am hopelessly helpless to the person I thought knew me

Maybe it was deserved for some reason
Love is not to be returned with love in any season
But you can never be part of my darkness; can just be of light
Maybe I didn't love you enough;
Maybe its my mistake and you are right

If only we can be together for a sec
Where you are truly mine as we were meant to be
Things may change the next moment;
till then I wanna hold you tight and weep !

Silence

Was drawing blood part of your prize ?
Punishing one brutally when helpless a necessary sacrifice ?
I know you wont return to see the ashes
Cos you would be afraid to see how that pain looked like