Always wary of the running vehicles
As I was blinded more and more by your love
You left my hand in front of a coming bus
I don't mind being run over
I don't mind going to pulp for you
I don't care if I live or not after we end
All I cared for was you
I don't wanna ruin your life
I don't wanna be with you if am not the one
I don't care if you will remember me again
Am just happy I won't rouble you again
even if I miss you like hell
I realize things can't work both ways
can't analyze and feel at the same time
I feel I have been honest to you
and just wanted to fade out the same way
But the bus has gone past
and you are no longer there
I wanted to make sure I end
But I survive to endure
The pain should have died
But it persists
I wanted to forget you
But memories still persist
I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna vandalize what we had
It will ruin everything
But I will hate you
not for leaving my hand
but for letting me live
only to make me see the truth and withstand !
I wanted to not be disillusioned ever
never to see imperfection in the imperfect bond we had
But I survive now to question it again and again
Unsure if it was ever true; on how things stand
Maybe the feelings for you would always persist whatever I think
But you should have been more merciful to me;
there was just no need to make it feel so wrong
I find I was in love with you and am weak enough to stay so always
But I still possess the strength to stand up and move on !
