Things that mean nothing to you

Why do you look at me like this?
Do you even know that I love you
Its time for me to go and
all things whirling have finally gone still
we no longer have luxury of distractions
to hide away from the only truth I know

and yet why do you hide all the time ?
From what we shared and what we did'nt
and accept for once what we are about to lose..
can't you see this is the end
of all that cud have been had I tried
I could have made you much happier
But then I lost my way when I lied

So why do we still lie all the time?
I am tired of lying to myself about you
Truth is no more a choice for me
Its the only option I have
and yet you now find me
dishonest in my intentions

Why can't you have a little mercy on me?
Can you not see how exhausted I am
yet unable to think of anything except you
Is it my pain that amuses you
or is it the fact that
you know you are the solution
that heals it

And will you just stop expecting me to be normal?
You won't be so cruel if you could sense
something dying inside me everytime I silence myself
for all the times I cared about you and never showed
and what these moments with you ever meant
to me in my life and my soul

Atleast hate me for ignoring you
please punish me
for my inability to treat you
as a stranger I don't care about
But then I can fake nomore
This is the only thing I can't do for you
even if you shout
Trust me, this is best gesture I can possibly show
Won't ever betray you for my heart
I know what my wavering eyes might tell you
Secrets better left unsaid ;as we part

Pardon me ,but grant me one last favor
Would you remember me atleast? Would you remember me at all?
Why do you laugh at me now?
Show me some consideration some feeling;no matter how small

Please forgive me for my weakness
and for this silent acceptance of defeat
I know; cry as much as I may inside
In this life we will never meet....