The feeling of a continuous mess surrounding you,of a gradually accelerating restlessness upon your spirit and the impending helplessness that there is really nothing in your capacity to help it can be psychologically draianing,especially so if it is present on your spirits almost the entire part of days,weeks and years.
This feeling can haunt your dreams,leaving you practically no place to rest your tired spirits.
Ultimately you sigh and agree upon the fact that we live in a world where almost every single thing is wrong or distorted from how it should have been and to purpose of life is to find just one thing right in all this mess.
That you are almost always on a bypass wherein you need to choose where you need to go is exhausting and exasperating, as no matter what you choose you always end up on the wrong destination.
The hope that 'there is one right path and I will find it' keeps you alive.
You get up from a very disturbed sleep and place your legs down from the bed on the earth and inadvertently you kill scores of ants walking on the ground.
You give a frustrated grunt since that is not what you chose or intended to do.
No matter what you really wanted you kill insects whenever you keep your feet on the ground.
Your intentions don't really help there.
It took me ten years to realize that the outer world can't really give anything to fulfill me.
Nothing i care for.
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Insightful.....excellent....
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